Thank You Adam Lambert/ Separation of Spirit & Body

Your Thoughts, Your Ideas, Your Teachings Your Lessons to Learn; TBR, Online August, 21st, 2011


Thank You Adam Lambert/ Separation of Spirit & Body

Suicide first came into my mind at a very early age. I was about ten years old when for whatever reason I made a tape for my parents, saying my last goodbyes. Over the years, although my life was a good one, the thought of suicide would stumble back into my mind and I could feel the loneliness as well as desperation, both coming from two separate parts of me, my spirit and body.

By the time I turned thirty-five, my unique friend (suicide) no longer paid me a visit and if there was a visit from my friend, it was a call from the distance, almost unable to be heard. When the recession hit, that distance appeared to become shortened. My friend’s voice grew louder, interrupting my day to day mindset. Passion and desire became weak and my drive to look into the future became frightening. Then one day it happened as if my soul was making one last stand and what a lovely stand it was.

While preparing to brush my teeth, I found my senses honed in on the radio. Adam Lambert’s song, “Whataya Want From Me” came on and I found myself recognizing again my separation of spirit and body. As his words filled my ears, I saw myself singing the same song to myself. I saw my body asking my soul the same question and I heard my soul calling out “Just Don’t Give Up I’m working it out Just don’t give in, I won’t let you down…Just keep coming around”. The madness of recognizing both sides of me singing the same song to myself soon became euphoric. By songs end and after recognizing as well as feeling both sides play a role to each other in the same song, with tears in my eyes, I no longer felt the separation. Instead, I felt stability and I knew I was officially grounded. Now when I hear that song, I remind myself of that day, remembering the moment and again feeling firmly placed on the ground.

The reason I share this with you my dear brothers and sisters is to remind you that you are beautiful and your existence in this life is so much needed. Should you ever feel the darkness from within your soul creeping to your continuousness hoping to guide you into self destruction, consider doing what I did and listen to Adam’s song while standing in front of a mirror; I believe you will thank yourself for doing so in the end.

Blessed Be-